I'll save you from the agony now and put this in a cut cause I always talk about the same thing... and it's boring.

( Please, do tell your never ending problems, Adrienne... )

I walked home drenched from the rain and drowning in my thoughts.

I love Brown Eyed Girls to the extreme, oh my god.

I can turn back time and go back to this date last year. I would've said no, and I wouldn't be the mess that I am today.

Is it too late? Do we not have a chance?
But me, I still think about you, and you might not know.

No eating meat for me. I'll try it for a week or so. If I survive then maybe I'll consider being a vegetarian.
It's gonna be so hard . ___________ .

I think I'm gonna go starve myself and save my lunch money, so I can save up to get my tattoo.

Yup, lmao.

My friend just kissed me today.
My other friend just confessed that he likes me.
My other other friend said he likes me as well.
My other other other friend loves me?

Yet I still won't give them a chance because I'm stupid, and I still like that boy that doesn't like me back.
I don't know what to do... Someone needs to slap me on the face.

I wish something exciting would just happen in my life. I am bored as hell. I mean, I have fun here and there, but those are just forgettable. I know just being happy and having my friends and family should be enough, but I'm really not satisfied. I wish there was more. I want more. With the conversations that I'd have with my friends, I feel like it has no relevance to anything. What we talk about is not important, and it's just a waste of time. We talk about the same thing all the time. Others talk on and on, and they don't shut the fuck up. I mean they're funny and all, but so what? What's more annoying is when they keep on talking when they know I'm listening to music. Like seriously? I obviously have my headphones on so I can drone out your incessant talking! You are boring, so stop talking.
As for music, I'm getting tired of it as well. A lot of my favorite artists are releasing horrible music and I don't even bother on downloading any of it. The music in my iPod is sickening. I listen to the same songs over and over again.

I don't really know what point I'm getting at... All I know is that, I feel like none of this really matters. All the things that we go through now doesn't matter, and I really don't care about anything anymore. I really am trying to live life and being spontanious, but I just end up being unsatisfied in the end.

It's been one year since the Versailles concert. That was the first and last time that I'll ever see Jasmine You live/alive on stage. I still can't believe he's gone...

Rest in Peace, beautiful Jasmine You ♥
I miss you dearly.

Stop running away from me when I'm confronting to you about it. Just give me the answers, so I can finally put it to rest... so I can stop hurting.

I seem to be more awkward around girls than I am with boys. What's up with that?

I want to say 'Hi' to you, but I don't know how.
Is making eye contact all we'll ever do?
Hope not...

Jennifer's Body.
I went to see it last night. Megan Fox is hot as hell; the only reason why I saw it.
So basically, if you thought this was a good movie, then fuck you! But seriously, this movie has one of the worst plots ever. Is there even a plot? NO. A lot of things didn't make sense, and I wish they kind of explained more... but that would be boring.
It kinda had the same feel for 'Drag me to Hell' (which was a very good movie). It gave you more of a laugh than a scare. So I guess that's the only good thing about it. Oh, and you get to see Megan Fox make out with the other chick. Nice stuff, right thurr. I wouldn't mind her eating me alive hahaha.

Worst movie ever? Yes.

My summer's almost over, and I go back to school on September 10th! I know many of you are already in school though. I say, lucky bastards! You're lucky enough to get out school in early June or even before that. Anywho, hope you kids are doing well and do your best on your studies. AJA~!! ^ ___ ^

Let's see... I've read a lot(or most) of people's entries regarding wanting to lose weight or have lost weight. I myself, is trying to lose weight. I know tons of people tell me that I don't need to, but I'll do whatever I damn please >:] I for one, do not exercise, so I've decided to just completely change my diet. So far, I've lost 3(almost 4) pounds. My weight before was... THAT'S A SECRET. Hahaha, not telling! I think it's been a month and some days since I started my dieting. All I've been drinking are water, green tea, jasmine tea, organic soy milk, etc. Also, I gave up eating rice. It was so hard at first, seeing as how I am Filipino and we eat rice with EVERYTHING. My mother cooks the best Filipino dishes too ; _ ; But that's alright... I've replaced those with healthy vegetables which I enjoy eating. Yay! So yeah, I'm losing weight in a healthy way. I just wanna lose 5 pounds then I am done. Try it out sometime; it might work for you.

Guess what?! I didn't straigten/curl my hair for weeks now! I cut all the brown/bleached split ends off, and my hair is much healthier. *pets hair* Hoo~! Give your hair a break from the heat!

Oh, what better way to end this entry is with a picture... cause everyone likes pictures hahaha.

Creepy though. Healthy inside = healthy skin and hair :D (My hair's gotten longer! I soooo regret cutting it last year. HMPH!)

Number One

I decided to delete my Myspace account. It was a difficult decision since I've had it for 3 years, but I had to. I don't talk to anyone there anymore, and it just had no purpose to it anymore, and it never did. Though, I am guilty of checking it everyday to see if something's new. I really don't know... I just felt like I still went on it cause I couldn't let those wonderful memories go. I've made great friends there that I met in real life, but I no longer keep in contact with them. Some, made an impact in my life. I can say for the better and also, for the worse. It's like in the beginning, you start as strangers and before you realize it, they start meaning something to you. I started trusting them, even care for them. All I can say is that that was one of the bad decisions that I've made. I don't know, it's difficult to explain. So, I've learned from my mistakes, and I don't trust anyone anymore. I also found out some things that would've been better for me not knowing, and that just made me angry. So you, YES YOU, don't underestimate me. You think I didn't know, but I did. Another problem that I saw was the people who constantly ask for picture comments. Oh my fucking god. Please, get over yourselves. Someone explain to me what satisfaction you get from getting picture comments! What makes you think you're so special, huh? Is it because of your new shitty ass scene hair with coontails? Is it because of your new overly photoshopped picture? Is it because of your "awesome" make-up? You people make me sick. Stop seeking for attention, and start being yourself. That's pretty much it. Goodbye, Myspace.

Number Two

I'm trying really hard to be healthy. I will start off by not eating fast foods, ack. I've been drinking hot green tea almost everyday now, soy milk (my favorite), and of course, water. Those parts are easy. As for food, there's not much healthy food around my house due to the fact that everyone in this household are so picky. My mother said that she would cook fish everyday, but my father doesn't eat fish, ugh. Let's see... I've been taking care of skin nowadays. I bought really expensive products that are really working, and I've been seeing improvements with my skin. I'm quite happy. I know it can get really expensive, but you know... a girl has her needs.

Number Three

School is starting soon. I can't say that I'm excited, but I am looking forward to it. I'm finally a Junior in high school, and I just wanna get it over with. This is when the real work starts, but I'm gonna try my best. I will study harder this year because I definitely bs'd it last year. Not very proud of that. Also, not joining spring track this year. I am hoping that I'll have a job by then. And and and and, if things work out, I'll be able to get my license on December 15th. I still need to do my six hours though. Um, I'm turning 17 soon? Yay.

I'm currently in the Philippines by the way, having the time of my life :)

Lately I've been thinking... thinking of what I would do after I graduate high school. I still have two more years left of high school, but I know it's gonna go by quickly. There's not much time. I'd like to go to college for computer engineering in NYIT, or if that doesn't work out, I'll go to NJIT. I still don't know if this is what I want to do. My parents have been asking me what I want to take for college, and I keep answering "I don't know". I just feel really pressured right now. I feel like I'm not capable of doing anything. I have such a negative mindset on things, especially about my life in general. I really don't know where my life is going.
If things doesn't work out then I am considering on joining the Air Force. I don't know why, but seeing my friend Tony and all the talk about army stuffs made me think. Maybe I should join. I know this is a decision not to take lightly, and I've been practically saying my whole life that I would never ever join the army and fight for this disgusting country, but I am serious.

Hm, I just don't know how my parents would feel/react about this.

Someone stole my picture(s)... pictures of me. Now they're pretending to be me with my pictures.

FAKE!
http://www.myspace.com/halobaby97

If I report it, will myspace do something about it? Probably not. This isn't really a big deal, but :/ THAT'S NOT COOL.

My sister said she'll introduce me to her friends brother! I'm quite excited for this. She said he's really cute, tall (dude, I have thing for tall people), and mysterious. Mysterious? Ohhhhhh, asdfghjkl;! Yum. The only problem is... the age difference. I am waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay older than him. Seriously. I'd rather not say what his age is. Just to make things clear, I am not a pedophile, kthanx.

So, I went to Cherryhill Mall today, and I bought stuffs. I spent over $50 today. *smacks self* I gotta control myself and stop spending money on unnecessary things! Ack, I need money.